A Never Ending Story

Hello everyone...
Hmmmmm...
Actually this entry I just want to outspoke my heart...
I think I have keep very very dark inside...
Even sometimes I felt that someday maybe I will never bare it like today...
Everything has it's own limit..
Everything have their own durability...
Even sometimes a new and expensive things also can be broken if we can't take a good care of it...
I don't know what to say anymore...
What I can do is just to take a deep breath and think carefully...
Sometimes I felt very very bad bout myself...
I not like others...
There are so many mistakes and cruel thing that I have done...

Sometimes I felt like hating myself due to some reason that I not capable to answer or solve...

Maybe I not that good like other guys...

But I swear in the name of Allah that I try my best to change myself...

But sometimes I can't see the changes...

Maybe it is not time yet..

But I have to prepare everything for the future...

Because right now the enemy is already casting his sword...

And slowly and slowly the sword will be ready to got into a war...

But I...

I also have casting my sword and what that I didn't confident is..

Is my sword is better than him???

What I mean in a aspect of sharpness, durability, hardness...

That's what I'm afraid of...

Because I afraid when I go into the battle...

All my swords will be broken easily...

And lastly I also will be killed easily...

Maybe like taking a candy from a baby...

So what I can say here that I can only pray to ALLAH to help in this war...

Because only with HIS power HE can change everything...

Even our destiny...

So think carefully my dear friends...

This story will never end until the end of world...