Bored..

the white starlight envelops the tears
the tears fall in the warm wind
do you feel it?
this trembling, quiet whisper that is going your way

i draw you on this white paper
the warm smile holds me
is this love?
even when i close my eyes, i see only you

i will be waiting for you
i will wait for you
i don't want to see the tears of pain anymore
you let me know
this love that's like a lie, i'll never let it go
because that love is you

i'm walking in my memories with you
the tears fill even the deepest area of my heart
what should i do?
even in my dreams, i miss you

please look at me, like the faraway stars
can't you be the one that's in my heart

Last weekend

last weekend ak terpaksa blik umah sbb nenek ak g umrah..

yela dari awal2 lg dia dh call bgtau yg dia nk g umrah..

so xbest la kn kalo xtgk dia dlu b4 dia g kn...

yela lgpun ak dh lme xjumpa dia..

so skunk ni byk time so pe lg blik la kjap la kn..

tp xpe time ak blik pun byk kot brg2 yg ak dpt dr ayh ak..

hehehe~

tu pun nsib bek ak sndiri slongkar almari kamera dia...

hehehe~

kalo x xader mkna nye dia nk bg...

hehehe~

yela pas slongkar2 byk kot brg yg ak dpt...

filter berdozen2 ak dpt..

lens n telefoto lens..

flash n byk lg la kn...

hehehe~

tp ak juz bwk filters n flash blik utm..

yela brat kot kalo nk bwk telefoto lens tu skali..

lgpun ak bkn nk capture gmbr sgt pun kt utm..

hehehe~

So ni la antara brg2 yg ak dpt..

mmg agk old school jgk la kn..

tp pe ak kisah jnji leh pki lg..

hehehe~

yela dr biar bnda mrput dlm almari tu bek ak pki kn..

hehehe~

walhal xnk kuar kn dwet bli yg br...

gler pe nk bli br puye...

yela pke la kn...

sbijik fliter for UV je pun dh nk rm70..

ni kn plak filter for effects...

pling koman la kn sbijik mau nk rm200 lbih jgk lowr...

sbb tu sbat je ayh ak puye tu...

hehehe~

yg lens plak almaklum la kn lens lme...

so ble ak msuk kn kt kamera ak mmg bkn function nye la leh pki..

ala juz auto focus je yg xleh pki..

so tiap kali nk capture mmg ak kne focus kn sndiri la kn..

huhuhu~

pyh jgk la kn tp xpe brg free kot..

hahaha~

stu lg time ak blik aritu ak dpt haversack ayh ak..

karrimor kot..

hehehe~

tp cm biase la kn..

beg tu pun dh cm agk old school la kn..

hehehe~

cm biase la kn jnji leh pki...

yela ak mls la nk pnjm2 haversack org len..

t kne bsuh n jga leklok la mcm2 lg la...

so bek ak pki haversack sndiri..

xyh nk pke sume tu..

hehehe~

hmmmm~

ak rse dh xader pape dh kot...

ok chow dlu ek...

kpd bdk yg bernama "S" org xheran la kalo bdk cuti lg lme dr org..

hahaha~

salam~

Another busy week..

minggu kusut gler siot kpala otak ak ni..

huhu~

dgn assignment nk kne submit rbu ni n rbu dpn..

tp sume xstart stu pth haram lg pun..

hehehe~

bkn mls tp xader mse nk wt..

then ble ader mse nk wt je..

time tu la ak nk tgk movie la..

men game la..

hahaha~

mmg slh ak la kn..

hehehe~

dis week pling sakit sket sbb nk submit photography presentation n gmbr2..

dh la gmbr byk xjd..

ayoyo..

poning kpala oi..

hrp ader la yg tlg kn urt kn t.. ;P

hehehe~

ni la antara2 gmbr yg ak dh capture:

pndi2 la korg nilai kn gmbr2 ni..

huhuhu~

coz ak xader mse nk capture btol2..

ni pun men sebat je lowr..

pe yg ader dpn mata..

tngkp je at least ader gmbr utk submit..

tp mslhnye lecturer ak tu cerewet sket..

sume gmbr nk yg high class puye..

nk yg men bulb mode la..

multiple exposure..

huhuhu~

mslhnye sume effects tu kne amek mse berjam2 lowr..

huhuhu~

xpe2 blik t ak bljr dgn ayh..

abdul aziz the freelancer photographer..

hehehe~

yela ayh ak dlu photographer..

dia spend about rm20K kot utk sume brg2 kamera dia..

so t blik ni leh cilok brg2 yg dia xpki dh..

hehehe~

yela dia pun bkn ader mse lg nk jd photographer lg..

busy dgn keje business dia..

so ak la akn jd pngganti dia plak..

hehehehe~

In my head

Ak xth la kn nk citer cmne hal ni..

tp ak rse diri ak ni mkin lme mkin plik..

kdg2 tu cpt trse o mkn ati..

tp ak ni jnis mls nk kcoh2 especially hal2 private..

so pe yg ak leh wt juz duk diam2 n pluk tubuh je la..

kdg2 tu ak nk jgk brkata2..

tp ak cm tkot..

tkot t org len tu yg kcik ati dgn kte plak..

plik2..

sblum ni ak ok je..

xader nk kcik2 ati sume ni..

skunk ni je cm mngada2.. plik2..

ni bkn diri ak yg ak knal dlu..

tp maybe Allah nk bg pmbaharuan kt diri ak ni..

yela tbe2 bubah je prngi ak ni..

dlu ak sorg yg pmrh..

kuat mmbrontak..

gdo sne gdo sni..

tp dgn prubhn ni ak cm dh krg sket dgn sume hal2 tu..

o maybe sbb ak dh mkin tua..

dh xlrt nk lyn sume kerenah2 bdn ni..

lg stu ak pnt dgn sume aktiviti so bdn ni dh xader energy nk lyn sgt hal2 tu..

hehehe~

kdg2 mmbr2 ak pun rse plik dgn ak ni..

yela dlu cmni skunk cmni plak..

ish3..

they said that maybe i in confusion bout life..

but what i can say that i luv my life rite now..

n hoping it will get more n more better than before...

insya allah...

stu lg dlm pkran ak ni kn..

knp ak cm mkin ske mnyndiri..

sbb kdg2 ak rse be lonely ni mnenangkn..

tp kdg2 tu bosan la jgk..

yela duk bilik sorg2 then duk o baring lyn movie je..

dh la movie tu bout berpuluh2 kali ulng..

hehehe~

ni sume punca xader movie br utk di tgk..

hehehe~

tp pe yg ak dpt rse dr perbuatan ak tu..

ak cm mngabai kn diri ak sndiri..

yela duk lyn movie je..

lg stu mmbr2 ak ni keje kuat men game je..

kdg2 smpi ak dh nek bosan men game..

ari2 dota je keje2 nye.. 24/7 lg tu..

ish3..

tu yg ak rela lyn movie tu..

walaupun kdg2 movie yg tgk ak..

hehehe~

tp kre best la jgk dr asik men game je..

hehehe~

tp insya allah sgala prubahan yg berlaku kt diri ssorg tu adlh utk kebaikan dorg jgk t..

yela sstgh org tu maybe mle2 bek then jd jht..

time jd jht tu kne musibah plak..

so dr situ la dorg blaja ttg erti idup n akibat sgala perbuatan dorg tu..

so pe yg kte leh wt juz doa kn yg sgala prubahan yg berlaku..

adlah utk kbaikan diri kte sndiri.. insya allah..

tp kalo rse diri tu dh jht..

wt2 la bertaubat ek sblum trlmbt..hehehe~

ok la.. sekian..

p/s: sye ingin mntk maaf kt S ats pape kslhn yg sye dh pnh lakukn..

Human

Stkt ni la kn.. Slame ak idup la kn..

Ak dh tgk mcm2 ragam manusia kt skeliling ak ni..

Xkisah la kt dpn mata ke.. blkg mata ke.. tepi.. kanan.. kiri..

Sume yg ak lihat sume nye len2..

Mmg mngkagum jgk la kn..

Yela kdg2 sstgh org tu kte xkn expect dia akn wt cmtu..

For example la kn..

sstgh org tu muka je baik.. skema gler..

tp prngi Ya Rabbi.. lbh truk dr org yg muka ala2 jht o gengster..

So kte xleh nk teka prngi ssorg tu..

Hnya ALLAH je yg th isi hati ssorg..

N hanya ALLAH jgk yg mmpu ubh ssorg tu..

Manusia o manusia..

Kte ni dtrunkn sbgi khalifah ALLAH..

tp knp kte jgk yg cbe utk mnghncurkn dunia..

kdg2 ak xphm.. yela kdg2 dorg ni ttg bnda kcik pun leh gdo..

smpi ltup2 kn bngunan sume..

dorg ingt bgos ke tu..

ish mnysh kn org len tau x... mmbunuh org2 yg xwt slh pape..

pe dorg xrse slh ke..kesal ke dgn pbuatan dorg tu..

o maybe dorg suke dgn sume bnda2 ni..

kdg2 tu ble ak tgk tv asik2 gdo, prang, ltup sne ltup sni..

srabut gler prot ak wey tgk sume tu..

pe la kn yg dorg pke smpi xleh nk settle bek2..

maybe sbb ego kot..

yela stiap org ader ego msing2 kn..

tp xkn la xleh nk toleransi lngsg kot..

ak bkn pe la kn.. yela ak pun kdg2 cmtu jgk la kn..

terlalu egoist.. tp stu je la yg ak leh ckp ego tu pntg jgk..

sbb dgn ego ni kte gne utk protect diri kte..

our righteous stand..

tp jgn la terlalu terlalu terlalu egoist..

sbb t ak mnyshkn diri sndri.. ish3.. sungguh bahaya..

sstgh manusia ni kdg2 ble dh wt kslhn dorg xpnh sdar..

tu adlah prgi yg pling bhaya skali..

kdg2 sstgh org tu ble dh wt jht..

dorg cm ketagih tau x..

bnda ni cm dadah yg kte xnmpk..

like cm mncuri la kn..

mle2 curi bnda2 yg kcik je.. then t ble bnda tu dh xmncbr.. mrompak plak..

sume bnda sme je la analogi nye..

wt pnt kalo ckp byk2..hehehe..

kalo ttg gejala sosial plak la kn..

bdk2 ni sume bkn reti nk sdar..

t ble dh kuar "video2" n "gmbr2" dorg tu br nk serik..

time tu juz leh berdoa je kt ALLAH utk tutup sgala kemaluan dorg tu..

tp kalo ssorg btol2 nk brubh..

insya allah ALLAH akn tlg..

insya allah... AMIN

Stu lg la kn yg ak nk ckp..

kdg2 diri kte ni xlari dr sbrg dosa tau..

tp kte akn cbe sebek mngkin utk mngubah nye..

dpt sume ni adlah pntg..

sbb bnda2 ni sume la yg akn ajr kte ttg erti khidupan sbnr nye..

n kte akn hargai idup kte ni kalo kte selami sgala musibah2 yg pnh jd kt diri kte tu..

ak sndiri pnh alami sume ni..

skunk ni ak nga cbe utk mngubah diri ak ni..

yela nobody is perfect kn..

yela kte bkn nye bersifat maksum mcm para rasul n nabi..

tp kte cbe utk mnjauhi sgala perbuatn yg mungkr..

tp kdg2 kte akn trgelincir jgk sket..

ni sume sbb iman yg xckup kuat di dada ni..

tp insya allah kalo kte doa hari2 ALLAH akn tlg kte..

n mmudahkn sgala urusan idup kte di dunia n akhirt t..

insya allah..

smpi sni je la entry ak kali ni..

mari la kte sme2 renung2 kn la ye..

bkn korg sje dgn ak2 skali..hehehe~

salam